Well, as much as I have been so blessed and enjoyed the comings and goings of the past few years of my life, I'm sort of wondering when the changes and transitions will be over. The more I think about it, the more I realize that life is all about change, transitions, and new beginnings. I have been officially moving into my apartment the past week and a half and it seems as if even when I have put everything in it's proper place, the refrigerator has food in it again, and the internet is working, I still am yet to feel settled. I know I have blogged about this before, but I am almost convinced that I am never really supposed to get "settled" anywhere. If I didn't have change or transition, I wouldn't meet new people or discover more about myself, both the put together and the messy parts of me. Sometimes, in trying to put together a new apartment, dorm room, or my new living space I am almost hoping I'll get put together with it. Those moments are the ones that remind me I can't put myself together. That I'll only be on this earth for a fleeting moment and if I worry about trying to fix myself or get things just right, I'll miss the whole point of being someone in need of God. I'm dependent, totally and completely in need. I'm learning I have nothing to prove to the world, to my friends, and family and that I have everything to lay down and give to the one truly in control. So, if you're feeling like me....a little alone, a little not perfect, and little needy, you're exactly where you need to be to fall into the arms of the one who never misses a catch.
Psalm 16
A MIKTAM OF DAVID.
Preserve me, O God, for in you I take refuge.
I say to the LORD, “You are my Lord;
I have no good apart from you.”
As for the saints in the land, they are the excellent ones,
in whom is all my delight.
The sorrows of those who run after another god shall multiply;
their drink offerings of blood I will not pour out
or take their names on my lips.
The LORD is my chosen portion and my cup;
you hold my lot.
The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance.
I bless the LORD who gives me counsel;
in the night also my heart instructs me.
I have set the LORD always before me;
because he is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.
Therefore my heart is glad, and my whole being rejoices;
my flesh also dwells secure.
For you will not abandon my soul to Sheol,
or let your holy one see corruption.
You make known to me the path of life;
in your presence there is fullness of joy;
at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
Psalm 16
A MIKTAM OF DAVID.
Preserve me, O God, for in you I take refuge.
I say to the LORD, “You are my Lord;
I have no good apart from you.”
As for the saints in the land, they are the excellent ones,
in whom is all my delight.
The sorrows of those who run after another god shall multiply;
their drink offerings of blood I will not pour out
or take their names on my lips.
The LORD is my chosen portion and my cup;
you hold my lot.
The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance.
I bless the LORD who gives me counsel;
in the night also my heart instructs me.
I have set the LORD always before me;
because he is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.
Therefore my heart is glad, and my whole being rejoices;
my flesh also dwells secure.
For you will not abandon my soul to Sheol,
or let your holy one see corruption.
You make known to me the path of life;
in your presence there is fullness of joy;
at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
2 comments:
I found your blog on a fluke - and I'm FREAKING OUT - because I attended JUC in 97. (I'm old!) So fun to read about your time there! It is magical, isn't it?
Em, thanks for your words and encouragement. I think we all need to hear that sometimes. I do right now, so thanks again. Maybe if we got too confortable on this earth, we would want to stay here. But we need not feel too at home since our true home is in heaven, right?
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